Good morning sunshines! Thank you all for your comments on my last post regarding the saturated fat content in the Jocolat German Choc Cake. There’s really no need to be anxious over 5g, especially when it’s from coconut, and not like bacon fat as Stef said. Next time when I have that bar again, I will listen to what my body wants and if it wants to aave a whole bar, a whole bar I shall enjoy!! No more portion shrinking!
I went for a meeting in school yesterday morning and then headed to the library to get some reference materials. By the time I was done, it was like 2pm, and I havent had lunch. I planned on eating in the Science canteen but my favorite stall was closed. Bugger. Since I was headed to Orchard area for my weekly grocery shopping, I decided to treat myself to Cedele at Wheelock instead.
Spiced Chicken Stew. Heart-warming.
This was my first time at their Wheelock outlet. Usually I frequent the one at Novena or United Square which is near my home. The downside was that this outlet was a restaurant so inevitably the prices were on the higher side with service and GST charge. 
I figured I should order something new (I only had their amazing sandwiches before), so I settled on their Spiced Chicken Stew.
This aromatic chicken soup is spiced with coriander seeds & cinnamon and gently slow-cooked with potato, tomato, celery, carrot and daikon. Truly Nourishing.
I wouldn’t call it so much a spiced soup but a herbed soup; it was much more herby than spicy, methinks. Anyway truly nourishing it was as I enjoyed it with the complimentary bread slices from the bread bar (which was a little too hard). The generous chunks of chicken were also very tender from hours of simmering! I love chicken in soup 
I was savouring every mouthful of my lonesome meal until I saw this blatantly anorexic girl near the entrance of the restaurant. Instictively, my eyes were drawn to her: her stick-like legs, her pale face, delicate arms, the way she stared into the cake display, how she stared at everyone’s plates as she walked into the restaurant, her hungry eyes. Actually she was kind of pretty, as in like having nice eyes. At that instant, I suddenly felt huge and fat. I chided myself for ordering chicken. Chicken = animal = cruel. I don’t usually eat much animal meat, what happened today? Should have ordered their Wild Mushroom soup instead, or even their all-day breakfast pankcakes. But then I caught myself in time and forced myself to stop comparing, and I’m proud to announce I finished everything till the last shred of chicken and last drop of soup. I probably stay of chicken for the next few days though; overloaded.
Melty banana oat bran w PB. My taste buds exploded!
I have been enjoying the wonders of caramelized melty bananas with oat bran for breakfast for two days in a row! The above was yesterday’s breakkie: 1/4 cup oat bran, 1/4 cup Anlene Concentrate, 1/4 cup water, melted nana flax seeds, lots of cinnamon, PB, and garnished with more banana coins. I closed my eyes and slowly made my way through this awsome bowl. I think food tastes so much better when you close your eyes??
Out-of-the-world combination!!
Today’s breakfast was made even better by the addtion of Delcious Nutty Crunch, and my new jar of Blue Diamond’s Almond Butter!!! The better breakfast butter all right!
A-W-E-some
In the heavenly mix: oat bran + anlene concentrate + water + melted nana + flax seeds + cinnamon + Delicious Nutty Crunch + AB.
Since it’s 31 Jan, it’s time to look back at how’s Januray been, and well as to make some new month’s resolutions! I’m so proud that I managed to keep up with January’s resolutions. I’ve been reading The Daily Bread the first thing in the morning, jogged alternate days on Mon and Wed, and was mostly on time (or even early!) for classes. Apart from keeping up these good habits, I like to work on
- Committment: turn up for whatever I signed up for, no backing out.
- Time-management: set aside a specific time for blogging, not randomly check wordpress throughout the day. Say in the evening, 7pm. Need to do school work too!
- Challenge: have a weekly food challenge to kick ED in the butt!!
To end this post, any suggestions for my first food challenge??
Great goals!! Kicking ED’s butt with a challenge–that’s my favorite!
Delicious looking oats!
<3 jess
xoxo
Sabrina, Sabrina, Sabrina. There are so many amazing things you’ve done to comment on, that I don’t know where to start!
I have had similar situations with seeing girls suffering from Anorexia – right in the midst of the disease – and felt myself grow to the size of a whale… But wait, that’s not actually possible! And you yourself made that realization. You are you, and no amount of wishing and wanting and comparing will ever change that. Comparisons, as we all know, are useless unless we are bargain grocery shopping. But we can’t grocery shop for “the perfect body”, and so making comparing yourself to others a completely pointless exercise. It only hurts us, makes us feel bad about ourselves and lowers self esteem. I am so proud of you for being able to take yourself away from that place of comparison and bring yourself back to reality. That’s a hard task, and you pulled through so well!
Setting monthly goals is such a brilliant idea… I think I’ll have to do that myself
Willingly challenging yourself is so inspiring for me – I’ve been having a lot of trouble facing my fears, and being able to see someone willingly doing that is such a motivation. I wish you the best of luck with the food challenges! And who knows, I might jump in, too!
LOVE,
Eleanor. xo
Thank you for this beautiful comment. I believe you can take on the challenge too. Just DO it!
i much prefer “herby” to spicy! LOL thanks for the bacon fat shout out, you crack me up. all of your pics are so gorgeous, how do oyu do it??
Heehee. Actually I cheat. I take my photos using my year-old Nokia N95 camera phone (5 MP), then enhance using Windows Photo Gallery — mostly the brightness and contrast levels. I have my breakfast before dawn so unfortunately no natural lighting, which really, is the best!
what is Anlene Concentrate??
I am so proud of you for conquering that soup. no matter what. NO COMPARING . xoxoxoxoxo
Anlene Concentrate is a super high-calcium low fat milk. It contains 4x calcium of regular fresh milk. Each packet has like 650 mg calcium. I hope it will help in building bone density!
Everything you’re doing is really amazing
Keep at it!
I felt the same way with the Jocolat bars but…y’know what? Saturated fat from coconut butter is GOOD for us and…I’ve actually gone and bought a jar of just coconut butter..and it is AMAZING.
Hi Sabrina
I just found you thru a comment u made on Seek Myself (who I adore). I relate to some of your story. Your blog looks great, I hope to follow u more.
Oh, haha, Sunbutter is “dangerous” because if I have it in the house I am liable to eat more than half the jar in one sitting…
Sabrina!
First lemme just say that both breakfasts look fantastic! Seriously… I just ate lunch and now I am craving oatmeal
You have SO MUCH to be proud of lately my dear! Not only did you ‘catch yourself’ in the act of comparing, you vowed to stop downsizing portions, AND managed to tackle that bowl of chicken soup after ED told you not to finish it
I think you are even stronger than you may realize
I love the new resolutions… especially the one about commitments because that is something I struggle with as well. As for the food challenge… how do you feel about some kind of pork? I know that is one of my fear foods and eating a bit of it lately really felt like an accomplishment for me x)
Have a great Sunday!
xox Tat
Hun, let me start by saying how proud I am of you for not restricting your meal just because you saw an anorexic girl. It was great that you were able to catch yourself comparing and realize that it’s the wrong thing to do. Enjoy your meals, and tell ED he’s not invited for them.
I’m glad you were able to meet January’s goals; February’s look like good ones as well
As for your first food challenge, why not tackle the saturated fat you were afraid of? Try the Jocolat bar in it’s entirety, or even some coconut butter… I love that stuff!
Have a great Sunday
hey sabrina! you have done so well and i am so proud of you
for a challenge how about you try something you havent had since you were a kid? like something you could recreate to bring back those memories 
have a great day xoxo soph
Nice interesting article. The same thing happens when media portrays celebs as thin and anorexic.
We feel guilty and we begin dieting
thank you so much! i’m glad i make your day funny with my weird ramblings. fear not, i’ve dug myself out of the trenches and am back! =D
and girl, i’ve felt the same way…there is this girl at my gym who is BLATANTLY anorexic…and i compare myself to her all the time. NOT helpful, so i block it out, and focus on me.
not sure what’s a good challenge, possibly eating a nice dessert?
Yup, Jocolats =/= bar o’ lard.
I’m glad you’ve resolved to enjoy them whole, though I enjoy them in chunks to save $$$. Those things are expensive! 
YAY for eating every last drop of that delicious chicken soup and remembering that you are recovering. Recovering and comparing just don’t go together.
Melty banana oatmeal rocks. Period. My ritual for eating wonderful food = look, smell, (exhale) scoop/stab/pinch/grab, close eyes and chew.
Have a wonderful day!
sab! it seems like you are confusing ethics with horrible ED!
You said you felt guilty when eating the chicken after seeing the anorexic girl, because chicken=cruel.
yes, you must continue to fight this terrible ED monster inside of you, but it does not mean you have to eat chicken to do so! please, don’t wrap up ed with vegetarianism and ethical eating! I fought my ED but stayed vegetarian throughout, and now, i happily go out for yummy vegetarian food that isn’t what ed might define as ‘safe’-examples include vegetarian bbq meat and sweet and sour gluten.
of course, i may be biased, as personally, i do feel that eating chicken is not the most ethical thing in the world.
In the end, its your choice, and you getting well is much more important than not eating meat! Don’t abstain from meat just because its ‘unsafe’ and ‘unhealthy, but avoid it if you truly truly feel that it is unethical
for instance, i want to go vegan, but i am worried that i might confuse being vegan with restrictions, and end up being vegan not for the animals, but for my selfish ed tendencies. so i’m waiting till i get better, and have a healthier relationship with food.
oh gosh, i’m rambling too much here, sorry if my words come across wrong or uber confusing…
<3 May